Happy new year

I tried to hold u, 
u left me many times, 
i managed to hold some of you,
Through few vehement clamors 
and through few pleasant chimes, 
today i am again at the summit,
to slide again into the unknown,
with the hope to hold few of u again,
the moments of life time.
I open my arms and welcome u 2019.
I let open the pandora box again....

Bezuban

Tab koi kasida padne mein nakamyaab hua galib, 
jab daar e durust aur mufalasi ka farq samajhte der ho gayi
Tab khayaal unka bhi to aaya tha hame magar, 
jab ankhein masroof reh gayi to baat bezubaan ho gayi....

Ae bekhabar

Humari laakh koshishey
Na kafi hai tujhe samjhane mei
Chal hum bekhabar sahi
Tu bakhabar sahi

Teri khidmat mei yeh umeed hai
Kabi tum bhi rehmat nazar hogi
Chal mere sawaal muzr sahi
Mera imtehaan e sabr sahi.

Vajpayee ji's death

That you are no more, does make me feel sad. But I feel contented too for I know that you have fulfilled the purpose of a human life which every noble soul aspires to do in a limited lifetime. I am lucky that I have lived in the time when you lead my country. I am lucky that under your leadership I witnessed the change in the image of my country in the eyes of the rest of the world. I am lucky that your efforts helped every Indian realize that we are not just fellow citizens of a country but denizens of a grand civilization called India. Thank you Atal ji for everything you have done for us. You will be remembered in every achievement India makes in times to come...

A conversation With you

You know
These conversations
When this world
Is talking
Like we do 
for hours.
Sometimes
Through eyes
Quietly
For a while
And this world
Understands,
Keeps quiet
For a while
And lets us talk
At length,
Awhile,
Like here
In this boat
How peaceful
Is to talk
To you
Without you

Without you

You know
How beautiful is
To sail alone
In a boat
On the water 
That shines
Of your skin.
More I sail
More I feel
The magic
Of the touch
Of you.
So lovely is this
Feeling
of you
Without you.

You know
This fragrance
In the air
That swirls
Through my nose
And takes me
To the dancing flowers
In the valley
Of your smile.
So lovely is this
fragrance
Of you
Without you.

And how would you
Not know
That there is
A vacant seat
On this boat
Reserved for you
Just you with me
In this short sail
Right now
Which takes me through
The million steps
That we have walked
Holding hands
And through
That gaze
You give me
That does
A million wonders
On me.
How beautiful
Is to look back
At you
Without you.

Baby
This sail
Makes a promise
With me
That holds this universe
And beyond,
Eternity,
Lesser a stake.
Promise
Bigger than the
Biggest of the
Promises
That any moment has witnessed
Till this time
And the time
That follows
Till it is
Forever
That
I love you
And
Nothing will separate
Me from you
This life,
Death,
Afterlife
And lives to come.

The world to me

Oh my wife,
What would this world look to me without you.
It would empty me of my thoughts but you.
I would float but would never fly.
I would be cursed but would never be helped.
I would be drowned in the stories of me and you, 
only to never swim to the shores.
Oh my wife this world against you and I 
in the realm of my desires.
How much do I adore you in me. 
I won't let this feeling depart.
I for you for me for everything but this world.
I miss you my lady against this world.
I love you my wife.
You are what I need for the rest of me in this world.

Hopes....

These red leaves
Fallen over greens
Each of them
A story teller
Carried all along
By this tree
Few fallen and buried
In the soil
Beneath.
That is how it grew,
This tree.
Carried all,
This long.
While in the joy
Of new leaves
Amidst the span
Of these red leaves,
Life moves on
Amongst hopes
And against bad memories.

Promises...be heard

That freaking moment,
When you want to hold her,
Those sighs deep and clear 
Few looks here and there
Then a long wait 
Never ending few seconds more
And a nice nervous shiver
That she shouldn't know
But she knows it already
Of what I hv passed and of what I owe.
Then that moment
When the world becomes still
For few promises to be heard

That I love her and forever I will.

hisaab aur khwaab

Tang hai beetey pal,

Sust hai ratein,

Neend bhi to nahi hai,

Warna kab ke so jate.

Kaash is jahan mein khwaab na hote.

Sirf Rounak hoti par rubaab na hote.

Fir toote khwaab wajah dhoondte rehte hai

Kaash is jahan mein hisaab na hote.

ae jafar

ae jafar ek baar aur mujhme aahen bhar de
ek baar fir se meri aankhe bhar de
ghuma la mujhe meri kadvi yaadon se
bas ek baar fir se shayari kar de..... Jay Sargotra

waqt

Raah geero ko nahi milta aashiana rehne ko kabhi, 
aur kabhi ek dhar hi hai kisi ka jahaan hota,
Chand lamho Mei hi guzar jati hai kisi ki raat kabhi,
Aur kabhi salon tak kisi ka sawera nahi hota.

fir ek roshni...

ae roshni,

yeh tum kis dar pe khadi ho,
bin aahat is seher mein

kis safar par chali ho.
tum kaise niklo gi in tang raho se
kaise bacho gi tum sari bedhang nigaho se,
is baar to tum akeli bhi nahi ho,
kuch kahaniya sath lekar, 

cchup cchupa ke chal rahi ho, 

jinke taar har dagar se jude hai
jinke rishte har nazar se jude hai, 

ae roshni yeh tum kis dar pe khadi ho,
bin aahat is seher mein

kis safar par chali ho.

par aaj jo tum is seher mein,
din ke teesre peher mein,
dabe pao, aahista aahista,
badd rahi ho is lambe safar mein,
ye safar aasaan nahi hai.

tum sirf armano ka aasre ho
par kahi zamin nahi
to kahi aasmaan nahi hai.

gar badna hoga is safar mein,
to sapno ko parr lagne do
jo chahaten ab tak soi hai,
un sab chahaton ko jagne do,
faila do apne rashmi teer,
aur khol do apni bahe tum.
na dhundho chahe manzil ko,
par mat lo lambi aahen tum. 

khair ik din aaaye ga,
jab sara jahan so jaye ga,
jab sirf hum tum jage honge,
aur saara fasla khatam ho jaye ga,
us din humare ishq ka noor hoga,
tab sirf meri nazren hongi
aur tumhara shugoor hoga.
tab aankho se aansu nahi bahenge,
tab hamare armaan koi gum na sahenge,
tab na raat rahegi na din rahen ge,
yeh seher bhi na hogi,
yeh safar bhi na hoga,
us din shayed hum bhi na rahen ge
us din shayed tum bhi na raho ge......

atishyokti!

ati-shyokti,

wah! kitni rochak ho tum.

itni saralta se baan cchod diye

unmukt gagan bhi kitna tucch hai aaj

gatisheel hawao ko rok liya hatheli se

sabhi jal dharao ke rukh mod diye.

ati-shyokti,

wah! kitni rochak ho tum  

aisi ghambheer sthiti hai,

jaise sabhi jalashey suukh gaye ho,

jaise saari shrishti doob gayi kisi soug mein

jaise sabhi parvato ki neev hil gayi ho

jaise mrityu hui kisi jeev ki kokh mein.

par tum itni nirdayi nahi thi,

tumne itni baat kabhi na kahi thi,

aaj jo tumne gehen peeda di hai

is peeda ki hume kalpana bhi nahi thi.

ati-shyokti,

wah! kitni rochak ho tum.

itni saralta se baan cchod diye

unmukt gagan bhi kitna tucch hai aaj

gatisheel hawao ko rok liya hatheli se

sabhi jal dharao ke rukh mod diye.

kaisa yeh rishta hai!

yu to nikli hui is baat par  yakeen aaye

par har alfaaz ke wajood par hasi aaye

khush numa to hai har lamha mere  jahan mei abhi

fir kyu is khushi ki har baat pe sharam aaye.

kaii rishto mei nahi mumkin hota khush reh pana

khush rahte hai hum is rishte mei kaii gumm khaye.

yu to nikli hui is baat par  yakeen aaye

par har alfaaz ke wajood par hasi aaye

aisa lagta hai ke ik raat hai chandni se saji

fir bhi chahu ke ye raat jald hi dhall jaye

hua gulzaar kai baar mera jahan parde ke peecche

darr hai jo pardah gira mera  gulzaar na bikhar jaye

yu to nikli hui is baat par  yakeen aaye

par har alfaaz ke wajood par hasi aaye

Today..

These evenings are different,
these evenings in white and fray.                                Those days much as I adored,
those robes and quivers in grey.
At one and another I knew,
This halt is where dont stop.
At one and another I did,
To gaze at raised, to crop.
It all has raised to different,
It all has evolved in being.
It stares from inside the mirror,
much as, to be a human being.
I used to write for tomorrow,
Few poems before I went in bed,
I still sleep and wake with the dawn,
But the poet in me is dead.

ek roshni thi

kya khaas hai is roshni main ke ye rukti nahi zamin par,
aasma ki teekhi nazar hai jo jhukti nahi kahi par,
saya bhi mu cchupa raha, badal bhi karwat le rahe,
kucch baat hai is sada main ke rukh rukta nahi kahi par.

aap anjuman main saki hai,rasta bhi aap ko maloom hai,
kahi rukiye to is hisaab main, manzil abhi bhi door hai,
khud mar mite ga parwana is roshni ke hijaab main,
aap saanse ginte rahiye ga hum zinda rahe ge khwab main...

ek roshini hai.....

ek roshini hai,
fisalti hui,
priyam ke man ke aangan se,
prem ke galiyaro se|

veh roshini hai
prabal jaise vishaal kaye vriksho ki tarha,
vriksh, ummeedo ke,
uunchi gagan chumbi icchaon ke,
rope hue kai varsho pehle,
pale-pose prem-rashmi se|

parantu ek kathin paristhiti hai|

jisne un aashao ko seencha
apne man darpan se,
apni kiranorpan se,
veh roshini hai
fisalti hui,
priyam ke man ke aangan se,
prem ke galiyaro se|

veh roshini hai
nirantar jaise madhur sangeet bansuri ka,
bin avarodh,
barish se lambi madhur taan,
jisne mantra mugadh kiya hriday drishti ko,
veh hriday gaan hai hriday antar main|

parantu ek kathin paristhiti hai|

jisne us geet ke bol likhe,
apni kirno ke kalam se,
apni swapn dwaat se,
veh roshini hai
fisalti hui,
priyam ke man ke aangan se,
prem ke galiyaro se||

veh roshini hai
rochak jaise yeh virah-awastha,
adbhut,
kisi vishay-vastu ki tarha,
ek kavita ke ansh se nikli,
keval ek paroksh-awastha|

parantu ek kathin paristhiti hai|

jisne is adrishya ras ka prawah kiya,
apni aseem gati se,
apni aseem shakti se,
veh roshini hai
fisalti hui,
priyam ke man ke aangan se,
prem ke galiyaro se||

jo yeh roshini hai
fisal rahi,
prem ke galiyaro se,
nabh nir avni taro se,
ek ansh peecche cchut raha||
rachnantargat jo icchayen thi,
veh lipt hai gehen viyog main|
par yadi main is par vilay karu,
to main prem-parmahans nahi|
aur yadi niswarth prem ka aadhaar samjhu,
to mera satyarth prakash vahi|

parantu ek kathin paristhiti hai|

jisse bani mere jeevan ki aadhaar samhita,
mere prem ki pramanikta,
mere prem ki sundarta,
veh roshini hai
fisalti hui,
priyam ke man ke aangan se,
prem ke galiyaro se||

mrityu yatra

kucch pal cchin aur samay ke pagh chin,
lambi kahani aur pal main cchin binn.
kucch gucche hai salon se,
ikattha hue kaii ke ghar.
do kinare hai soch ke,
aur rasta ider na udhar.

bas beech sadak chalti hai,
pata nahi shayed sadiyon se.
jis taraf kisi ka rukh nahi,
sirf parcchaiyan chalti hai us raste pe.

ye parcchaiyan badi dundli hai,
zehen se lipti yadon ki tarha.
isi khayal se juda ik falsafa hai,
jo yahi hai par kahi bhi nahi.

rozana kafile chalte hai,
bude kahi aur jawan kahi.
bas safed libaas pehne hue,
aur hath main koi samaan nahi.

yeh ek mrityu yatra hai,
yaha kisi ki nahi chalti.
khaak se uthe due ki tarha,
aasma main kahi gum ho jati.
ye na dikhne wali yaden
fir barasti hai barish bankar
dil tak gehre do zarro se
aksar behti hai aansu bankar.

Kaise Kahu

Tere aane se behtar aur kucch to nahi hai,
Par aaj barish se gujarish kaise karu,
Maksood hai ye dil-E-tamanna kab se,
Par labon par ruke alfaz main kaise kahu.

Kehne ke khayal se hi sanse tham jati hai,
Fir tasveer-E-jhalak dhadkan chura leti hai,
Par mere hi jazbaat ka zuban par zor na ho,
To unki aankhon ko main apna mujhrim kaise kahu.

Aatish hai dil ke har kone main ik taraf,
Aur gum hai zehen apne hi ghar main kahi,
Hai uunchi uthti lapte bhi unki lagai hui,
Par kyun julas raha hai dil unse main kaise kahu.

apne aap ko us bakhsh ke aage sochta hu,
Jab main bhi kisi dargah main teri rah dekhu ga,
Tab bhi khush dikhu ga teri ibadat main ae khuda,
Aur tab bhi mera khuda bas tu hi rahe ga,
par jo aakhri azaan ka din mukarrar ho chuka hai
us din tak gehra dard main kaise sahu,
han ghar to mera sabz chader ke neeche hoga,
par intezaar hoga kabra pe bhi unse kaise kahu....

Unke aane se behtar aur kucch to nahi hai,
Par aaj barish se gujarish kaise karu.....